Unbearable Pain: My Fight With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a gloomy weekday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sudden pain sprang behind my one eye. Then came rapid stabs, like lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort eased and then returned with greater force. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches returned frequently that fall, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-blown agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically begin with intense pain around one eye that persists up to several hours.

About 1 in 1000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches typically start with sudden, severe pain focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate found 64% of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts during attacks; the figure dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Still, the failure to plan life around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented across history. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an evil spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Ancient medical records suggest unusual treatments for what some experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a separate condition, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by international medical committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel that supplies blood to the head. Prominent experts in treating the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the results of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple surgeries before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary head pain conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. I remember calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack passed.

Official guidelines on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the bouts of some individuals.

But consultant neurologists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the cycle determines the treatment.” Short bouts with infrequent episodes are managed with acute treatment only. Longer or more severe periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.

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Andrea Dillon
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